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Saturday, September 17, 2005 -comatose-
#1 tired. lei. there was this night this wk i slept through frm 1am till 1pm the next day. And, the worst part, I was supposed to wake up at 9am, study abit then go for proj mtg at 12noon. missed it. i cant believe how tired i was and how my stupid alarm mode was wrong n didnt ring. sigh. #2 hols haf ended. big sigh. had proj mtgs almost evry other day. even if i didnt, i still had 2 do stuff relating 2 it every day. but ya noe, i love my 221 grp to bits. as in like, i tink its cool how we can bond outside of meetings too. the waffle-icecream talks over divorces, horfun vs. beehoon and all our lame jokes tt arise frm all our late night filmings #3 i want to raise my kids in England. i think i belong to the league of Singaporeans who are leavers, or rather who are labelled "quitters" or people who treat this place like a 5 star hotel rather than home. i mean, come on, this is still home to me. no whre else beats coming back to SG. its just that, thinking about my kids and the kind of education I want to give them, I just think that a Western form of education would do them more justice. I want them to be creative, to not be limited by overly pragmatic realities, to have the passion n freedom to pursue what they want. I don't want them to be reticent in class or be afraid to speak up for their opinions. i want them to speak properly and not in Singlish. I can accept myself and all others for having Singaporean traits and there are lots of things which I love about being Singaporean. It's just that, I don't want my kids to grow up to be like me, rojak. not here not there. banana, potato. physically here but emotionally and mentally not. And that's a scary thought to harbour. I wonder which guy would be willing to leave this comfy nest and fly away with me to start a home abroad. but at the back of my mind, the fears of being marginalised and a 2nd-rate citizen in a Western nation abound. maybe, just maybe, I'd move to a truly cosmopolitan city, one that is really a melting pot of all cultures, so that foreigners from all sorts of countries make up a good portion of the population there. some place like Melbourne? I'm sure there's somewhere in the U.S. like that too. but by George, that wouldn't be a jolly good thing would it? since i looove the BRIT-ish ACCent so much and the streets of England. ah, bullocks. #4 NEWS that angers : First headline that caught my attn this morn. T**s feature on "bringing you the stories from the village" where that murder-suspect-maid came from. Straight away I was like "huh? you mean T** so rich ah? purposely dispatch 2 reporters there to dig out stories from her village background?" and furthermore, does such a story warrant such extravagant spending on the part of the newspapers? I dunno you know. I really wonder. And when I actually thumbed thru those pages, what I saw made me even more peeved. The fact that they actually kept drumming into the maid's two young sons that their mother is in a lock-up and in serious trouble and even SHOWED the son a T** copy of their mother on the frontpage with some terrible headline obviously lah. And the photographer took a photo of the son staring at the coverpage. I mean like, its so upsetting. People are already so upset with their wife/mother/daughter-in-law being behind bars in a foreign country when all she wanted to do was earn a living and make sure her family had enough to get by each day. Furthermore, they are prob trying 2 fathom why she could have performed such a grisly act. And these 2 reporters trot down there and thrust these newspapers into the boys' hands, force them to come to terms with it and create a stir in the village where all are already so disturbed by the whole incident. sigh. makes me think abt journ ethics. what should a journalist do in such a situation my friend? what would i do? #5 NEWS that angers 2 : 3rd blogger charged in a week. I mean like, seriously, why are we equating these people to terrorists/communists by charging them under the Se**tion A*t when all they wanted to do was publish their thoughts? sure, their thoughts sowed some racial discord here. but the age-old question is why cant we confront these racial disagreements instead of sweeping them under the carpet and charging people who actually dare to question n blog their views? Is there really no freedom of speech in our cty? This is so sad. I mean, I am totally against them using expletives in their blogs to comment on race issues and all. But I still don't agree on how bloggers can be culpable for "trying" to undermine national security. come on, how many people read their blog. I for one have not heard of their stupid blog until it came out in the papers. Shldnt we take into account how many pple the blog impacted? I'd say not many. Firstly, how many per cent of Singaporeans actually surf the net frequently? Secondly, how many actually have blogs or blog surf? Probably only a good portion of the youths. So what is the blog's reach?? I'd say a good 5 or the most 10 per cent of Singapore's population (and that's giving it alot of credit). Come on, does this really warrant being charged under the law? Furthermore, the whole notion of blogs being a public vs. private domain is still being debated out. You mean, SG has actually decided that blogs r no longer private domains? How about those with passwords? Yes, you are going to quote me the scholar's case. Don't even get me started on that. I'm slowly becoming disillusioned with blogging. i cant even say things I want to without worrying I'd get approach by the -they who shall not be mentioned-. this is soooo frustratinggggggggg. #6 You say you are recovering from the aftermath. now, what makes you think I'm not struggling as well? In fact, you'd never know the tears and heartache unless you look beyond your own. do u even appreciate honesty? you don't know how hard ive tried. oh, n i cant stand it whn pple r not sincere abt giving gifts. spare me the lukewarmness and niceties without the heart. -dead- Gra
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the traveller
She :: (fun-loving)(paradoxical)
(unpredictable)(emotional)(impulsive)
(introspective)(determined)(set apart)
Walks for :: God.
Loves :: chocolates.chill-outs.weekly movies.borders.
retro.jazz.travelling.retail therapy.tea.milo peng on sad days.
purple.live bands.fresh flowers.ktv.fine dining.francaise. my journey needs prayers * to just finish this sem well! sometimes it hits me you are as close to God as you choose to be. the tune this is Jesus generation past roads
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